Clarification...

Someone got worried when he saw the AD i placed in my blog yesterday.... Ha ha!

Just wish to clarify that the AD is not meant for me but for my 2 Dearest chummies namely C & J... Hahahaha....

I'm blissfully married to my lovely hubby + 2 lovable children + 1 goldie dog.....

Continued....

Further to the ad placed earlier on, additional criteron to be added on:

- must love kids (& we really mean LOVE)
- must love dogs (cos u need to pick up the pooh)
- most importantly you must LOVE the woman you gonna MARRY!

DO NOT HESITATE FURTHER, SEND IN YOUR RESUME NOW!

Vacancies!

ACJ Limited* is looking for potential candidates to fill up 2 important positions: BRIDEGROOM.

Criterion:
- must be above 170 cm, preferably 175cm
- tall nose
- high EQ
- good cook
- talented (pls prepare a gig if you are shortlisted for an interview)
- good looking
- funny
- knowledgeable
- charismatic (like George Clooney)
- musically inclined

Interested candidates, please BB Lea Anne at her number. We will arrange for an interview with you shortly. If you do not have her number, this means that you are not acquainted to her in any way hence you will not be considered at all! Don't waste time...

Cheerios!

Love,
Lea Anne

*ACJ Limited is a public listed company which is helmed by the following prestigious ladies:
CEO Lea Anne
CFO Cinnie
COO Jessie

Growing Up

My girl is growing up.....:)

Yesterday, she asked me for permission to go for a charlet event organised by her classmates.

This is gonna be her 1st (definitely not the last, i'm sure!) time away from us overnight in a charlet.... Though i have my reservation but i have to let her go when the time is ripe...

Is this the ripe time? I'm not sure but I know she will not let me down... :)

Can u imagine that Charmaine Koh Shi Min is gonna stay overnight with her "girl-friends" in the charlet for the 1st time? Oh my God! I can't believe that time is catching up fast with us....

I do hope that she will have a great & fun time with her friends! Really... I mean it from the bottom of my heart.

Girl! Go and enjoy yourself! You deserve this break! :)

BIGGEST LOVE,
Mummy & Daddy & Aidan

God's Blessing!

It's been a long time that i update my blog....

Here's a good news to share with all.

Charmaine passed her PSLE and will be proceeding to Normal(Academic) next year!

It's with GOD's Blessing + her own Hard Work(off course) that she made it so far... Off course not forgetting the effort from her home tutor (Ms Pei Ying) to coach her during this trying period. A BIG THANK YOU to all involved. :)

BIG LOVE from:
Lea Anne :)

To be or not to be

At times, I’m amazed at how selfish a person can be.

They want more from others but refuse to give at all.

They dare to despise others and think that they are the High Almighty when they are just a shell with nothing inside. Really nothing at all.

They think so highly of their “beauty” but they forgot that such “beauty” will leaves them when they aged… They would not know how to age gracefully….

They will kick a BIG fuss when they can’t get what they want.

They feel that SHARING is a sin and being SELFISH is a beauty.

They will only go for prayers when they hit a bad patch and expect deity to save their souls.

GOD, I know why you put such people around us. This is a test for us and also a constant reminder that we should not be like them. Most important thing is you want us to save them hence YOU place us amongst them….

Well, GOD… I’m struggling with YOUR IDEAS as I’m still a human afterall… However, I will try… YOU know what I mean…

Thanks be to GOD…

OUR CHILDREN

Heard a sad news over radio early in the morning today.

A P5 boy’s body was found at his block yesterday. He took his oral examination yesterday.

I can’t help to think that he may have committed suicide due to his poor performance during his oral examination? This may be my assumption but I kind of trust my instinct that I may be right afterall.

What makes him take the plunge? It’s really no easy feat to be able to muster that courage and jump off a flat, you know….

How does nowsadays parents / teachers rate poor performance or good performance?

Does poor performance refers to not being able to get A*?

What’s wrong with the education school system / parents nowsadays?

I am considered a weird mum in my daughter’s teachers’ eye. Why? Cos I give her freedom in whatever she does… She is given permission to fail her test or exam as long as she has put in effort in her studies. She is given the permission to be able to fall as long as she is able to pick up where she falls and move on with her life.

I was not like this when she first started P1. We both learned through the hard way and after I have changed my own mindset, we are much happier and are indeed a pair of happy mummy and daughter. She is willing to share with me her problems and always count on me to be there for her whenever she needed support from me. I am gald that GOD gives me a chance to see the light and am grateful to HIM.

Do you love your children more just because they score A* in all their subjects and not because they are YOUR children? Yes! YOUR CHILDREN is GOD’S gift to you!

Ask yourself these questions:
1) Have you hug your children everyday?
2) Have you say “I LOVE YOU” to your children everyday?
3) Have spend quality time with your children everyday? Even for at least ½ hour?
4) Have you been cooking dinner for your children whenever you can?
5) Have you tell your children that you are always available for them whenever they needed you regardless you are at work or not?
6) Have you tell your children that failure is the mother of success and do not be afraid to fall. Just have the courage to pick up and move forward?

Start doing some of the above if you have?

Give OUR CHILDREN back their CHILDHOOD! We had ours and have no reason to deprive them of their childhood….

TRUST......

It's sad when trust is no longer present.

Now that I know that when you pick me up is because you do not trust me. It hurts me deeply... very deeply...hurt is no longer the word that could describe my actual feelings.

I know you are going through a tough journey... Me too... I am going through it with you but i guess whatever i have done so far is not enough to expel your distrust in me.

I am not someone who pay lip service. If it's the lip service that you wanted, i'm afraid i am not the right person then.

Raining Day....

It's been raining since early morning...

It's representing my mood...

Am always telling close ones that "Tomorrow is a better day!!! Look on the bright side..." But a doc can't cure his own illness...

Well, life still needs to go on, isn't it... be it happy or sad....

Let it be... This philosophy requires loads and loads and loads and loads of inner strength to achieve it...

THANK YOU!

Thank you for standing by me through this trying period....

I am grateful to you.... and am gald that GOD sent you to be part of my life... :)

Trying Hard

Believe me... I am trying... I am trying very very very hard....but i just cannot let go as yet...

For YOU! GREAT people in my life!

好好的做人!

My Dad & I

I am my dad’s eldest daughter.

My dad was a seaman when he was young. He would be out in the sea for at least for a couple of months and will stay in s’pore for another couple of months with his family. During those time was only my dad, my mum, my grandma, my ah gong, my uncles and aunties.

Being the only child at that point of time, I have all of my dad’s attention. Whenever, he is in s’pore, he would bring me to Clifford Pier to have a boat ride before mid year or final year exam. This outing went on till he is no longer a seaman and found a job in s’pore. As I grew older, we have our Sunday jogging around AMK. My dad loves to jogs. My dad loves the harmonica too. When he is happy, he will blow his harmonica and sing one of his favourite song – lu dao xiao ye qu. Right now, his singing is in my mind… how I missed his singing… because of our strained relationship, I seldom hears him sing anymore because of the seldom meet up we have and also because he wasn’t happy.

My dad is very particular of our education hence he would make sure that he engages tutor for me so that I could excel in my studies. And yet I have disappointed him in not making it to the university. Yes, as my brother had put it in his passage that my dad is a stern dad who seldom smiles. I guess the reason why he does not smile is because he has a few concerns to take care of during those times like how to bring in more money for the family and also because of the troubled relationship with my mum. They always quarrel and I hated it very much.

I had my fair share of quarrels with him too. The very big one was when I gave birth to my son in 2002, September. Mum told me that she is having hard time with dad and she wanted to move to 2nd auntie house. I told her since I have spare rooms then why don’t she stay with me and at the same time helped me look after aidan. This was a wrong choice which I made. I did not consider that my dad would be lonely at home alone. So unfilial of me, right? We did make up probably a year later and he has aged a lot then.

During the 3 years my mum stayed with me, things got worst and we no longer stayed together. During the time I was avoiding my mum, I have to meet my dad at coffeeshop for a meal or coffee. In one of our meet-ups, he said sorry to me and it took me by surprise. I only said “orh”. Why didn’t I tell him that forgiveness is in the air? This is the problem with us Chinese; we do not express out our feelings to each other no matter who they are. It’s always until that your loved one has passed on then you will start blaming yourself for not expressing your love to them. My dad did ask me to forgive my mum for the trauma she had given me during the 3 years stay with me and I refused. He told me that we only have 1 mum in our life and no matter what happens, we are still 1 family. Despite of how mum treated my dad, he still speaks up for her and this makes me regain the lost respect I had for him previously.

Talking about respect, I looked up to my dad in our early days together especially when he was in his ns policeman uniform. My dad really looks smart in his uniform attire. And I remembered that I told myself I wanna to be a policewoman when I grow up. I did not end up being a policewoman but my brother fulfilled that for me.

To come to think about it, I did not do my best in spending time with him. I am always busy with work and children that I have ignore that fact that he also needs someone to talk to. Only till now, I have lost him, I missed him so dearly! What kind of daughter am I????????

My brother called me on 25th morning telling me that dad wasn’t feeling well and I told him to bring dad to see doctor in one of the nearby clinic. Later was told by my brother that dad went to hospital instead. I thought that it’s the same ailment he had the last time as he was admitted to hospital before for bloated stomach which later was diagnosed as stomach ulcer which was later cured by some medication without going through any surgery which my dad had dreaded. Dad had told me before that he does not want to suffer in the hospital in the event he falls sick. He always does not believe in western doctors as he felt that they took him as guinea pigs which he does not like. I visited him on 26th to 28th May 2009 after work and spent time talking to him. My brother did sent me an mms on 28th May showing dad’s restless facial expression which kind of worried me and my brother told me that doctor said because of his low blood pressure hence he is restless. I talked to the doctor in charge on 28th May nite time when I was at the hospital and the doctor told me that will discuss my dad’s condition with the kidney doctor before they could tell us more. However, she did pre-empted me that he may need dialysis in order to purge out the water and toxic in his body as they suspected that his kidney is failing him. On the late nite of 28th may, my brother called me and we rushed down to hospital as doctor said that they have no choice but to rushed him to icu to be on 24hrs of dialysis as his condition had gotten worse. Seeing him having tubes all around him pains me deeply. We saw him in the icu ward and I could never ever forgets how he looked at me with his pleading eyes that he does not want tubes around him and he wants it to be taken out but I was helpless. I couldn’t help him do that and had to assured he that doctor will do their best. He was struggling to free himself but he couldn’t. My brother and I decided to stay put in hospital as we would receives calls from the hospital whenever we are on our way home. Guess he just does not want to be alone in the hospital and wanna our company. Guess what, there was no 1 single call from the doctors when we stayed put in the hospital. Strange isn’t it?

On 31st May 2009, things are not improving and my brother and I told each other to be mentally prepared for the worst. I brought charmaine and aidan to visit dad and whisper to him that they had come to visit him, tear trinkle down his eye. Believe he know that they are here to see him. Immediate families came over to visit my dad and upon making sure all of the people he would want to “meet” had turn up; both my brother and I told him to go in peace and not to worry for us.

I started my rosary prayer for my dad on 28th May 2009. Urging GOD to reduce his suffering and that if it’s time for him to be home, please bring him HOME with not much suffering at my dad’s end. If it’s still not time yet, please heal him and and bless him speedy recovery. Since then, every morning and evening, I will do my rosary prayer for my dad and GOD answered my prayer. Indeed, my dad’s suffering was minimized during his stay in ICU.

My dad had attended a Methodist church before when he had stopped working and he shared with me about GOD briefly. Actually, my dad wanted to be a convert Christian before because there was once he was really sick in one of the countries he went during his seaman’s days and a Father had took care of him during those sick period. However, because of my mum’s disapproval, my dad gave up the idea of being a convert Christian. Coincidentally, my religion path is more towards Christianity too, Catholic way.

I have to thank my dad for being very insistant that my Chinese must be the best language because he is a Chinese educated person. Because of him, I am good in this subject and am able to read fan ti zi. Imagine he made me read 三毛流浪and calligraphy too. He always feels that learning calligraphy trained your handwriting to be nice but I gave up after 1 mth of trying… hence, my handwriting is really not nice lor…

This sums up my journey with my beloved dad for the past 35 years.

爸, 我好好好想您! 我們會好好的做人. 不要操心.

Destiny

Destiny brings 2 persons together.....

It may be short-lived or may be for a lifetime....

Do treasure each other when you are together....

Time will not turn back no matter what you do....

49 Days

Date of birth: 24 aug 1948 (Lunar calendar)
Date of Return Home: 1st June 2009 ( wu yue chu jiu)
Final age: 62years (Lunar age)

Today marks the 49th day of my beloved dad's Return to Home.

My dad's life was full of hardship as he was not born in a rich family. He gave up his studies in his young age as the family needed him to contribute in order to get by and there were younger siblings who needed monies for school too.

In my memory since young, my dad was a bread stall holder, a sailor, a taxi driver, a delivery man, a handicraft man, a petrol station pumper and lastly a security guard...

He likes to play his harmonica and sing his favourite song - Lu Dao Xiao Ye Ju... I am considered one of the fortunate one being the eldest as i have heard him sang before and i can vividly hear his singing now.... He was always so happy whenever he had the time and mood do this favourite pastime of his...

He was always the stern and strict father but he has his soft side too. During his free time, he would try different recipe and let us try... His cooking is definitely better than my mum cos he cooked with his heart.... One of my favourite dish cooked by my dad is fried markerel with soya sauce porridge... Yes... it's a simple dish but i tell you, it's the best porridge i had tasted so far...

I miss you, Pa! I really really really miss you loads!

Life Recipe

Ingredients:
1) Simplicity
2) Sanity
3) Optimism
4) Happyness

Methods:
Mix ingredients 1 to 4
Sprinkle little salt
Sprinkle little spice

Tah dah.... you have your LIFE!

Ponder.....

Sometimes I ponder: "Have I not done enough?"

Sometimes I ponder: "How much more do I still need to go through?"

Somtimes I ponder: "Why? Why? Why?"

After all these pondering, I conclude that this is a test for me in this life to makes me stronger to cope with more challenging tasks ahead....

Okie dokie...back to my happy food of the day - meiji choco gummies.... :)

Life is once again beautiful....

Where do i go from here?

One of the grey days..... :(

Where do i go from here?

Where are my hopes?

Where are my optimism?

All lost in transition?

I don't know....

tRIBUTE To mY bITcHY sOuLmAte!

Hey Friend,

You know who you are... YES! YOU! Stop your "roll eye" pattern.... Hahaha....

It's not easy to find a "bitchy" soulmate and yet we found each other.... Isn't life so amazing...cos frankly speaking, we have few things in common and yet we can click so amazingly well.... Haha..

To name a few discrepancies between us:
Like you like branded stuff, I don't....
Like you like shopping (Mphosis lah-Your all time fav, La Senza lah), I don't....
Like you like pedicure & manicure, I don't....

However, GOD made us meet and as u would have know now the rest are history.... :) Hahaha....

Thank you for being part of the enjoyable and fun bitching session with me almost everyday.... It makes workplace more endurable else I would have died and grown into a BIG HUGE MOULDY MUSHROOM liaoz.... hahaha... why mushroom right? cos I LOVE MUSHROOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMSSSS..... I want to be a Mario Mushroom in my next life... WHAHAHAA.....

Hey suddenly I have an idea! Since there is a book called Chicken Soup then we should write a book about our daily bitching scoops and named the book "THE BITCHY SOUP"! Then we will be rich just by collecting copyrights $$$$$$$$..... Aren't I a genius???? whahaha.....

Thank you for being my "bitchy friend"!

友宜万 "shui" (unable to find the chinese character for shui so replaced with hanyu pinyin lor) hahahhaaahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

Food for Thought.....

Saw this mantra:
You live by choice, not by circumstance.
You manage your life through faith, not by feeling.
Hmm.....it sets me thinking..... Hmm....

朋友

Don't walk in front of me
I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me
I may not lead.
Just walk beside me
and be my friend.

幸福

幸福是一顆夢想的種子，需要用生命的熱情去灌溉..........。

Little note to my Little Ones

Dear Charmaine & Aidan,

I know now is the period both of you are feeling stress out due to exam period.

Mummy just wanna to say "give it your best!" I am sure u can do it! :)

Please do have enough rest too even though studies is important.

Little note to my Dear Dear

Dear,

Just would like to say "I LOVE YOU"... :) *blush* *blush* *blush*

Your beloved 3 Dearest -Anne, Charmaine and Aidan will always be with you in bad and good times.... :)

Whatever you are going through for the past years is just a test and I am sure you are able to overcome this test. No matter what happens, we are always there to give u a helping hand..... We will never give up no matter how hard it can be.....

Love,
Dearest Anne

Xin Yuan Ji Gang!

We always enjoyed our hearty meals at Xin Yuan Ji.....

Sliced fish meehoon with milk... *slurp*
Cereal prawns.... yummy!

To our personal little pastry chef - ah ting,
Thank you for your souvenirs from the various part of CHINA.... Xi-an lah... Har-er-bin lah.... Shanghai lah....
Thank you for keeping me in your heart always though you ventured out to Shanghai during your attachment... I so touched sia... :)

We are still waiting for your banana cake or crumble.... right here waiting for you..... hahaha....

Just wanna says to you: Xiao Peng You, you will go very far de with your humble and hardworking attitude... always wanna to give a hundred and ten percent in your work or studies... Keep up this positive attitude of yours, yeah! off course, not forgetting your wide grin! :)

Happy Anniversary! Mini Olympic Gang!

Hey Mini Olympic peeps!

Yesterday marks the 1 year anniversary of our Mini Olympic segment at the THK charity show!

Reliving last year preparation of the show brings happiness within me cos i truly enjoyed rehearsing and being part of this gang. Though we have our own emo and stubborn moments but this is because we wanted to make sure our performance is flawless as possible.... :)

Our late nights rehearsals.....
Our snacking sessions...........
Our roti prata sessions after rehearsals......
Off course not forgetting the daily snapshot sessions with everyone including Nat, Ben, Darren, Tak Gor and Chin who were so fun loving too...

These are the unforgettable memories...... :)

THANK YOU ALL for being part of this memories in my life....

Little Friends Club

Friendship is a very amazing thing in this world......

Some are short-lived....
Some are superficial...... Hi and Bye....
Some are long-lived.......just like the 3 of us....

The 3 of us are the only family members of this Little Friends Club..... not because we are little in age though... hahaha... how i wish i could remain little.... hehehe......

Our gatherings though not alot but enjoyable.... Talking about our loved ones makes us welled up in tears.... it's this kind of sharing which brought us even closer....

Dear little sisters, thank you for being part of my life... not anyone can tahan my EMO style.... From the bottom of my heart - THANK YOU! *tears welling up again*

Dear ah tan - I will always be around supporting you whenever and wherever you are... :)

Dear ah lye - My door is always open for you....I am gald you are back from outer space.... GOD has brought you back to us ..... :) You asked me what makes me turn to HIM? What i can say is that there is a affinity between HIM and me...and now is the time that i respond to his calling.... Just like you and me, our affinity has not ended hence we are still able to pick up where we last left.... :) This is what i call FRIENDSHIP aka SISTERHOOD! Remember, me and ah tan will always be around you wherever u go....

No Manners... Shame on you.... *Bleh*

What has happen to our younger generation nowsaday, I wonder?



Has the earth turn anti-clockwise?



Overheard a conversation between a father and his daughter(sounds like she is in her teens)

Daughter(in commanding tone): Why no service?

Father: They say never make payment.

Daughter(in commanding tone): How come never make payment?

Father: I did not receive any bills.

Daughter(in commanding tone): Then now how?

Father: They say will resume service and will send me the bill.



In another conversation:

Father: Girl, the staff says can swap the equipment now then they will provision in our account.

Daughter: then why the last time their staff says must sign up new service then can take this

thing? why they so PIG!





To the Girl - Little girl, WHERE ARE YOUR MANNERS????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



To the Father - Mr X, have you become your daughter's son?



Can you imagine what would be your parents' response if you ever talked to your parents in the above manner? My parents will make sure I am being slammed onto the wall for being so rude and disrespectful!

Another GLOOMY Day

It's one of the "not so happy" day again... yes ... again... :(

Some people are just so capable of making life miserable for others....

Why?

Is it because you are not happy in your life hence you want to make other people's life miserable too? Or because you are just plain jealous of others' happiness hence you want to go out of your way to destroy others' happiness?

What's the point of always acting to be the pitiful one when you are not!!!!!!!!!!!

Cut off all your crappy and fakey acts! Get out of my sight!

I really can't stand 1 second looking at you.... your face really SUCKS! SUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!

BAPTISM DAY!

11th April 2009
The "Day" I was baptised.

For the past 1 year(almost), I have learnt alot from attending RCIA class.
HE taught me Tolerance, Happiness, LOVE and also Forgiveness..... I have sensed some changes in me.... Without HIM, i guess i will still be the same old stubborn oxen.... hahaha... however, i will still have my own emo period though... guess this will not change....


4th April 2009
Part 1 of Baptism - Anointing of oil

I cried. Something touches my heart and i cried....while still singing the hymn "YOU ARE MINE".
I have relieved my nightmare from my heart forever.... I felt so light.... guess the "nightmare" i have been carrying all these years had R.I.P forever....